Giver of Life

Testimony by T. W. Hao

I was born into a Christian family. Everybody assumed I was a well-behaved child. But this is not true until I believe and accepted Christ. Since kindergarden I was a very very rebellious child who likes to break the rules. I liked to bully girls and was constantly picking on a fight with the boys. As a consequences, my teacher, frustrated with me, decided to send me away from the ‘excellent’ class as she was worried that I may have a negative influence on the well-behaved children.

Then, I enter into primary school. I started to smoke, gamble, fight, and even steal my parents’ money to buy story books I fancy. I stole books from book exhibitions. My neighbours also thought that my future was gone. By the time I graduated from primary school, my elder sister decided to bring me to church. Initially I was reluctant to attend because I could not stand the boring sermons by the preachers. With my attitude at that time, it was astonishing that I would have the patience to give it another try,but I suspect it was the work of Holy Spirit, that I have the patience for attending the biblical teachings conducted in the church. All of a sudden, I begin to experience a 180 degree change in my life. I became enthusiastic to care and help other people. I do not steal anymore and I even admit my small faults like breaking an egg to my mother. My mother was surprised and touched by the new change in me and encourage me to go to church more often.

However, in secondary school, I became decadent once again. The reason was – all the youth attending at that time were females and I was embarrassed and shy to go to church to mix with them. I was dissatisfied for a few years. Then arrive to the second turning point of my life when I was in matriculation, and my friends invited me to join their Christian gathering, which was conducted weekly. I joined their activities and was again touched by the Holy Spirit. I attended every gathering there and went to church regularly even if the members of the church consists mostly of girls as I do not feel embarrassed in front of them anymore because I know we are brothers and sisters in Jesus Christ.

I was baptized 3 years ago, now I am most happy and relaxed when I go to church and I am drawing closer to God day by day. If it wasn’t because of Jesus, I think I will not be here in USMKK. If it wasn’t because of Jesus, I think you would have seen my photo in newspaper photographed as gangster, thief, robber and any other law-breaker. Jesus Christ is the Giver of my life because He turned my life and gave me a new life. How about you, who is your Giver of life?

Trials and Tribulations

Heartfelt sharing by J. Ding

For most of us, we must have read about Joseph’s story. Basically Joseph was Jacob’s favourite son, because of his brothers’ jealousy towards him; Joseph was then sold as a slave to Egypt and was subsequently bought by Potiphar, the King’s official in charge of the palace guard. There Joseph was put in charge of Potiphar’s house but was sent to prison after Potiphar’s wife failed to seduce Joseph and accused Joseph of rape. In prison, he met the King’s personal servant and chief cook and helped them interpret their dreams. Later, when the King of Egypt had a strange dream, Joseph was brought forth to interpret it and in the end was made Governor of Egypt second only to the Pharaoh.

For us, knowing the ending of Joseph’s story, it is a happy story. However, what if we were in Joseph’s shoes? He faced challenges after challenges. At times when things were looking better, he suddenly found himself to be in a worse state than before.

I recently just recovered from chicken pox. Due to the disease, I was on medical leave for 10 days in my 6 weeks posting in the medical department. During the time I was sick, I had high grade fever, persistent headache, difficulty in swallowing food and vesicles all over my body. I also faced a risk of disfigurement because my face was swollen and covered with pustules. The scars from the pustule of adult onset chicken pox are very deep. But to cut a long story short, I finally recovered and managed to return to USM with minimal disfigurement but to without consequences.

Firstly, my medical leave meant that I missed some important lectures and had to self study them. Second, I was late in handing up my reports and had to do all the work within one week. Third, I missed an exam that I was supposed to have in the medical posting. Luckily, the lecturer allowed the exam to be postponed until I was back in USM. Fourth, I had to sacrifice my holiday with my family planned for the convocation holiday.

With all this misgivings, I was mad at God at first. I asked why this had to happen to me. But later I realized that everything could have gone worse.

Things like diseases and accidents happen without warning. They disrupt our lives, make our routine stress free life chaotic, and give us anxieties and worries. These are the challenges that God throws at us to make us grow up in mind, body and spirit. I believe that God gave Joseph all the challenges in his life so that he could be prepared to become the Governor of Egypt and fulfill his life’s mission of saving his family and people when the severe drought hit Egypt and the surrounding lands.

So friends, do not be despair when u face troubles or challenges, may it be studies, family, relationship. Have faith that God will always be there for you and help you. My motto is ‘I do not know about tomorrow, but I know who holds tomorrow’.

For those who do not know me yet, last year I got dengue fever and was admitted on my 21st birthday. This year, I got chicken pox around the same month. I am eager to know what I will get next year.

A Word From An Ex-Advisor

Heart to heart with Asso. Prof. Dr. Phua Kia Kien

The PPK of CF as we call today, was already in existence in May 1986 when I first reported for duty as a lecturer in the department of Chemical Pathology, PPSP. Dr. Low Heng Chin, who joined the Department of Community Medicine in July 1984, had taken over responsibility for a small group of Christians at PPSP in the Penang Campus when Dr. Graham McCall (from the Department of Surgery) was transferred to the Kelantan Branch campus in 1985. The 2 CFs continued to exist as 2 separate groups until June 1990 when the two halfs of the Medical School finally merge to form PPSP as we know it today. Through the encouragement of Graham and Jenny McCall and the perseverance of the Christian student leaders then, the group was first registered as the Persatuan Pelajar Kristian Kubang Kerian (PPK KK) toward the end of 1989, which was also the year the McCalls returned to UK. By the grace of God the group grew in size as Dr. Low and I remain faithful to the calling. With the merging of the 2 halfs of PPSP and the opening up of new courses for diploma in Medical Laboratory Technology (1992) and Nursing (1994), there were more students at the new PPSP complex in Kelantan. Later, it was called the ‘Health Campus’ (HC) when new schools, ie. School of Dental Sciences and School of Health Sciences, were formed in 1998 and 1999, respectively; and with it a rise in the Christian student population.

In its infancy the group was besieged with many problems, but by God’s grace, the CF survived and now stands as a towering witness to the power and wisdom of a might God. As part of the requirements of USM, Dr. Nick Jackson and I were appointed advisors to the CF. This we were willing to do as it would further the cause of the CF. There we serve as conduits for the CF to channel our request to the authorities. We were indeed blessed with facilities and opportunities that allow us to have an impact on the community in the HC. Personally, I felt much blessed by the comradeship of Dr. Nick and Dr. Alison Jackson (Department of Community Medicine). They not only took the burden off my shoulders sharing in the teaching ministry at the CF which Dr. Low’s passion and love for the students had sustained us for 5 years, but also encouraged me by their selfless sacrifices for others. As the population grew, we moved from our home-fellowship meetings to the lecture halls. Sometimes our gatherings were small and sometimes they were large, but we desired above all to meet with the Lord every time we got together. We saw the hand of the Lord in many projects we undertook, inspite of racial polarization problems that broke up in the campus.

In 2003, after 17 years at the CF, I relinquished my duties to Dr. Tee Meng Hun when I took my Sabbatical leave. I felt it was time to pass the baton along to a younger and more suited lecturer – for the responsibility and priviledge! One of my greatest joys as a member of the CF was being able to introduce people to Jesus and to help them discover of rediscover their faith. It has been my blessing to see young people turn to Christ, from a lukewarm heart to one that is full of enthusiasm and love for Him. It is indeed a joy to see people discover their potential to serve the Lord and be willing channels of blessings for others.

Over the years, I have seen many CF members come and go, and many have left behind a legacy of the love and faithfulness of an endearing God, our Lord Jesus Christ, who paved the way for this small group to grow and prosper even in the midst of real challenges. Indeed, many can testify that it is through those trials and tribulations that we grew as a community as remain faithful to the cause of the Gospel Message. To those of you who are new to CF of you have just joined as a student, do rest assured that God has provided the best for you, and you are precisely where you should be at this time of your life. Open your heart to the opportunities and possibilities around you that calls you to be His messenger. For it is in answering this call, to be His ambassador in this campus, that we will most satisfaction. If you have not been going to the CF, may I encourage you to do so, for there you will find enduring friends that will last a life time! Trust me, for I have been there….

Tuesday with Morrie

Testimony by T. Liszen.

… a book that I read during early in my fourth year in University, I could recall not much of the book’s messages, but there is one chapter, one particular that keeps on lingering in my mind until now…and will once in a while pop out to echo loud in my mind. It is a chapter where Mitch, the author asked his old, bed-ridden professor, Morrie, who had been afflicted with a disease known as Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis or ALS, about his opinion of the Book of Job. I suppose Mitch was wondering how a suffering patient like Morrie would see God’s deeds on Job in order to test Job’s faith.

As a Christian who was very enger to know more about God then, I am ashamed to admit here that I was terrified when reading through the Book of Job.
Yes, I was terrified.
“If I were to give all out for God, will I be experiencing the same situation as Job?”
It was not the adversities to come in the way that I feared the most; It was the process of testing my faith to God.
I love God very much; at least that was what I thought I was then. “But will my faith survive all those adversities if I were Job?”
Despite all these thoughts, I could not help but try to learn to be a good servant of God, because without His salvation, I will not be here writing this. Hallelujah!
Hence I began my journey to learn to be a good servant since my Year 4 in University. And more often than not, I would be encountering helplessness, loneliness and being perceived as a weird person or hypocrite. I survived these and I said to myself. “Hmm, not bad…may be it is not as bad as I thought it will be. Yes, as long as I put my eyes on God, God will help me to go through all those trivial trials. He will be my strength when I am weak.”
I had been holding to that thought whenever I encounter difficulties, until a few months ago, I found myself too weak to even to think of that thought.
I was confused, bitterly in pain emotionally and physically, and worse, I blamed God for what had happened.
I blamed Him for giving me a problem that could not be undo, I blamed Him for allowing that incident to happen, I blamed Him for involving the people I care and love all this while, if all these were to help me to grow…why it could not be that I being the one and only who undergo it?
Then during the CF meeting when Mick came to preach about “Encounter”, he said about how job demands of God an explanation of his plight, and God said,

“Who is this that darkens my counsel with words without knowledge?
Brace yourself like a man;
I will question you, and you shall answer me.
Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?”
Those verses were like a slap on my face.

Who am I and what am I to question and to even blame God? Then I realized that I had been loving and worshiping not God, but rather God’s gift and blessings upon me. I love what God can bless me with, to the extent that I idolize the gifts, not the Giver. That is the reason, I suppose, I agonized so much when things gone so wrong in my eyes, and forgot that sometimes, humans will never be able to comprehend all of God’s ways. For God’s ways are higher than our way.

The recently, God put me through a serial of events to help me to seize the meaning of true faith in Him. I could not share with people I love what are in my mind, what are troubling me and why am I acting in such ways. It was indeed a true agony, when the people you love started to doubt you and you could do nothing to make them understand. Then I learned at that time, am I not the same? Putting God into such situation myself? I doubted Him so many times, while deep inside, I know He loves me, and He has always been there for me. It must have been very painful for God too, to have His child to doubt Him, when all the things He has been doing, are for the good of His child, just that it is beyond the child’s ability to learn the blessings behind. Thus, I know now, Father in Heaven, that I should keep on having faith in You, even if the situation looked terribly grim and messed up at that moment.
And at the end of that chapter, Morrie answered Mitch, “I think, God overdid it.”
Personally, I think, God was doing things in His ways, in accordance to His will.
Well, so now I am really grateful and praising God for the trials He has been giving me, and I think there are more to come…but thank you, Father in Heaven, for promising me that You will not give me burden that I cannot bear. And I would really love to end this by sharing with you all these verses.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James 1:2-4.

射箭

最近我找到一个新运动， 那就是射箭。 我在这大学已经读了四年， 我从来没想到会学射箭。是  Julian 介绍给我的. 到今天， 我学了一个星期， 满爽了。 有其实中那中间黄色， 我觉得真的很 high! 好像找到宝物。 可是有时候， 我射的简会 miss! 那时候， 我心里好像刚刚 heartbroken. 很痛苦! 哈哈! 如果这射箭， 我可以练的好， 我可以代表 Murni Nurani 进 SUKAD. 就是我还有机会为 Murni Nurani 赢金牌。 赢了金牌， 我会把所有的荣耀贵给上帝。

 

进了这射箭， 我没时间作别的东西。 有时候， 我问我自己， 为什么我怎么 ‘无聊’ 参加这些活动?  可是我相信， 参加运动可以让我们活出基督徒! 赢了， 是一个荣耀主的事情。 好像我们在学业里得到成功， 我们会讲， ‘是上帝帮我们的!’。 如在运动也一样。

 

但是， 最重要也是我们和上帝的 personal relationship! 如果这个  personal relationship  不好， 我们所有在外面做的事情都不会成功的。 要保养我们和上帝的  personal relationship.

Raya Holidays

Raya holidays started almost a week ago n now let just bout 2 days. Holidays r the time I owiz look forward to, a good time to rest and catch up with my family. As usual, there are owiz issues to deal with whenever i goes back home, we end up discussing those issues and figure out solutions. But stil its much better than being in campus. Campus life for me, its owiz full of stress n pressure. I get stressed up over studies, relationship wid those irritating selfish ppl, even sports and cg activities. My face oso older n older. Look like old uncle edi.

Im edi into final yr for about 2 months dy, yet i stil haven gotten into the ‘momentum’. This is reali worrying, as many of my final yr coursemates are already into the accelerating ‘momentum’. I dun to be the one left behind… Many things i havent revise yet, my clinical skills i yet to master. Argh!!! I reali tat this yr wil b a successful yr for me but things are going the opposite way…

SUKAD too, is around the corner, 17 oct, this time will be held in USMKK. I’ll be playing squash for the last time for USMKK. In fact, actually I planned to retire this yr, but since they held it at USMKK, i decided to give it another try. I hav not been training for a long time. Skills and fitness is really really down at the moment. Even this Raya holidays i couldnt find time to practise. I really hope tat i can regain my confidence n fitness in these 2 weeks. After this SUKAD, I wil bid squash goodbye. Say goodbye to all the sweet n sour memories in squash court.

Some recent events make me realise how human i am. Many areas in my life i been trying to change, trying to improve yet i failed. I begin to learn to leave things to God. Let God take over, Im just too tired edi.

Photos of Orientation Week

Hah! Finally I got the time to post photos taken during USMKK Orientation Week 08/09. Its been a long time since I wanted to post these photos but connection in USMKK is just no good enof… But still, I couldnt post all the photos taken…

I just saw the Olympic semifinal match btw Lee Chong Wei and Lee Hyun Ill. Chong Wei won 21-18, 13-21, 21-13 and qualify for final to meet either Chen Jin or Lin Dan of China. Lets pray that Chong Wei will bring back Malaysia first ever Olympic Gold Medal!

Paediatric Short Case

Today I had my Paediatric Posting short case exam. I got a case of a child with severe cyanosis, and polycythamic. Clinical findings was fingers and toes clubbing, peripheral cyanosis, red conjunctiva suggestive of polycythaemia. On auscultation of the chest, I only found loud P2. There was no murmur, and no signs of heart failure. My initial diagnosis was pulmonary atresia, that was a bad step! I shouldnt have said that, the doctor asked me questions on pulmonary atresia and I couldnt answer. The she go on asking me questions on cyanotic heart diseases which I manage to answer some. But finally I came to a diagnosis of complex cyanotic heart disease.

Tomorrow I gonna have my MEQ exam at 4pm at Paediatric department. My supervisor wants to see me at 2pm tomorrow, I wonder is he gonna ‘hantam’ me as he usually does. This posting has really been stressful for me. With me being the group leader, so much responsibilities, sometimes when I make little mistakes, I got terrible ‘hantaming’ by the lecturers.

Just recently I almost quarrel with one of my groupmates over some clinical session. We wanted that particular lecturer cuz he haven taught us before during posting, but this guy insisted on having him instead. When I insisted on having that lecturer, he show me a sour face. Then after tat I decided to give in, I let him have that lecturer. That particular night, I was so frustrated and irritated. But now I decided to put this behind me, and look forward. Anyway I already to accept everyone in my group regardless of who they are. I have to keep on reminding myself, tat Im a christian, and should learn to be gracious to ppl.

Today i played badminton with a 1st yr medic gal. She is a thin and tall sweet gal from nurani. We knew each other for bout a month and I enjoy her company. Many time we met and talk, but rumours about us are spreading like hot goreng pisang! Many ppl are asking her wat is her relation with me. Fortunately she edi has a bf, otherwise ppl will be thinking that Im dating her. Gossips bout me in campus is not something uncommon. But im not worried, one day they get tired, they wil stop gossiping edi.

Tomorrow got CF, I wonder whether shud I go o not? Really feel malas wanna go…

Aspirasi Universiti!

Have u ever heard of this ‘Salam Aspirasi!’, or ‘Salam Aspirasi untuk Mahasiswa Bersatu’? If u r studying in a local university in malaysia and have not heard of this, I guess u muz b someone who hardly knows anything bout ur campus. But as for USMKK, this word ‘Aspirasi’ is really really rarely heard, much different than USM Main campus in Penang. Students in USMKK are just too busy to get involved in university politics.

Actually me myself have not heard of this till word ‘Aspirasi’ I applied for PPMS in 3^rd yr. We have to undergo a 1 week BTN camp in ulu kenas with students fr Main campus and engineering campus. Those especially fr Main campus keep on melaung-laungkan Aspirasi. And whenever someone shouts ‘Aspirasi’, the rest has to follow and shout ‘Aspirasi’. If someone says ‘Salam Aspirasi’, the rest has to clap hands.

Ok, wat is Aspirasi? It a motto for a group of students who support the university and its policies. A group of students embracing the university’s vision. These students are supposed to work together for the betterment of the university and its students. Sounds nice rite? Gempak rite?

But wait, these group of students was also taught to embrace a political party’s ideology. They were also taught to support and this political party’s vision. Whoever disagrees to embrace this political party’s ideology will be kicked out fr the Aspirasi team. These people will not be allowed to engage in any of the Aspirasi’s activity. This reali saddened me. Why do we have to embrace a political ideology before we can join in building our university and community up? Why cant we work hand-in-hand to serve our uni regardless of whatever our belief is?

I don’t support any political party either. I felt better to be neutral and take whatever is good and reject whatever is bad. But I think its high time that we, student leaders or wat people call it ‘Pemimpin Mahasiswa’ could just set aside all our differences and serve the people regardless of race and religion.