Forgiven, Accepted

December 16, 2008

Hospital Pasir Mas

Its been a few days since I was posted in Hosp. Pasir Mas. Life here was really different than that in USMKK. Arrived here on thursday, I found the scenery here rather peaceful and quiet. There were 17 of us, 6 guys and the rest girls, one house for each. Two dutch students from Holland came and join us in this district posting. Wow, our life here will be much more interesting with their presence. The house was dirty, so the first day was all cleaning and mopping. One good thing we found is that, the previous groups left a map of Pasir Mas in our house, showing those popular food restaurants in Pasir Mas. These restaurants were also rated, imagine that? How creative they were?

The next day, we set out to check out those ‘hot’ restaurants in Pasir Mas, but unfortunately most of the reataurants are closed on fridays. We wanted to eat the ‘Lian Hong’ Loh Mee, but it was closed too. So we just settle down with wan tan mee nearby. That day was also one of our coursemate, Zie’s wedding party. Including her, there were already 4 ppl in group who are married, one of them is already a mother! I am still single.:-( So jealous of them… Anyhow the bride was so beautiful tat day. She was always pretty, but tat day was just extraordinary beautiful. We had another lunch at the wedding party and then took photos with the newly wed couple.

On day 3 which was Sat, We spend the whole day online, chatting, downloading movies. The line here was quite fast, so our computers were on most of the time. I brought my keyboard along and Viki brought his guitar. I taught Toh Jeng, my coursemate to play ‘My heart will go on’ on the keyboard and he was diligently practising it since then. Occasionally his gf (who is also our groupmate) will drop by listen to him playing. How sweet…:-)

Yesterday, was just the usual briefing, running in the wards, doing procedures. We are supposed to go Barkas in the evening, to do some research on the water in Kelantan but due to technical error, the trip was postponed. Tis morning, I went to the Labour room, and there was this patient, 28 year old female, gravida 2, para 1, about to give birth to her second child. No painkiller was given to her. Her active phase of labour was long and she was having difficulty pushing her baby down. Possibly due to her short contraction pain. It took almost 1 hour before finally the the baby’s head came out. Here in Pasir Mas, unlike HUSM, they dont give painkiller to pregnant ladies in labour. Imagine the pain they go thru? I really salute these ladies who choose to deliver in Pasir Mas.

Life here is rather slow paced, unlike in HUSM. People here are more relaxed and not in a hurry. I dont feel so much pressured here.

October 11, 2008

Mercy and strength

Filed under: Personal — Tags: , , , , — tanyuethan @ 10:47 am

‘Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and grace to help us in our time of need.’ Hebrews 4: 16.

This verse struck to me as I was reading the Bible this morning. This week I gonna orthopaedic posting exams and by the end of the week, is SUKAD. Both stuffs giving a hard time this whole week. In final yr, orthopaedic posting is only 3 weeks, really not enof time for us to cover much. Especially my theory knowledge, i struggle a lot, even during our ortho posting in 4th yr.

In difficult times, we tend to use our own intelligence to solve problems rather than relying on God’s. We doesnt seek God, we figure out our own solutions. In the end, problems multiplied and worsen, we get stressed up. And then we blame God! We blame God because God didnt help us to solve our own problem (by using our own solutions). But I believe God is still faithful. He will never forsake us in times of trouble. We just need to pray n come back to Him… Learn to be dependant on Him!

What ever happens tis week, I juz hope tat it will be something tat glorifies God!

May 25, 2008

Remedial Paediatric Posting

Filed under: Academics — Tags: , , — tanyuethan @ 10:19 pm

Im back in campus, have to do remedial for paediatric posting. Still feel the tiredness in me after the 8 hours journey from Shah Alam, so much to study, so much to cover… I didn’t expect to fail my paediatrics, seems medical life is unpredicatable. Paediatrics was my last posting, I expect to pass it and continue my elective in Hospital Klang, but wat happen…

Im reali disheartened over it, sad and heartbroken. I have gone thru so many setbacks in 4th year, yet another problem prop up. I’m losing my self-esteem recently, every posting I struggle to pass. I did once failed my ORL posting, but thank God I managed to repeat the exam with the next group and then passed it.

So many thoughts are going thru my mind now, I dunno wat gonna happen soon. How is my future going to be? Wil I be able to make thru medical school?

My dad once said, as a Christian, we will have to undergo trials and tribulations. Only thru this trials and tribulations, our hearts and soul will be moulded to be better and better. When problem arise, we can choose to be bitter, or choose to rise up above the challenge. It never easy to do the latter, tat is to rise up above the problem, that’s y we need to come to God

I dunno how this two weeks of paediatrics gonna be, we are going to go thru clinical sessions, oncalls, and lectures. At the moment, besides studying, there’s nothing I can do, except to put all my hope, faith, trust in the Almighty God. Only with God, I shall see my paediatrics through. I guess I won’t be writing any blog until my exam over (which is next week). I will do my best for HIM!

May 13, 2008

Post-clinical Exam

Filed under: Academics — Tags: , , , , — tanyuethan @ 6:24 pm

I just finished my clinical exam at 4.00pm today. I got a febrile fits case, but the presentation doesn’t seems to be febrile fit. Beside fit, patient has blue spells, shortness of breath, pale. On examination, I found patient to have prolonged expiratory phase. My history and examination doesn’t tally at all. Bad la…

At least the patient was cooperative, although he was only 5 months. I did presented my case to doctor and was asked a number of questions which I couldn’t answer most of them. Dunno how?

Hopefully tomorrow MCQ will be much better. I just can’t wait to go back this thursday. Really cannot tahan staying in this campus…

May 12, 2008

Tired and weary!

Filed under: Sports — Tags: , , , , , — tanyuethan @ 11:29 pm

This past few days have been very tiring for me. Running from wards to wards, from patient to patient. Clerking patients, doing procedures. Getting signatures, presenting cases to doctors. Wah, really my BP now running low, battery also running low. Tomorrow I will have my clinical exam, hopefully everything I studied come out and I get an easy case with a good doctor. Tonight I gonna lift up my prayers unto God.

I really hope to pass this posting and go back, spend time and lepak at home. I dont want to do my remedial in USM. Need to get some rest at home before coming back to USM for final year. I gonna give my best shot in final year, not for myself, but for HIM!!

With this, I decided to quit playing intensive squash, in order to concentrate in my studies. This has been a difficult decision for me, as I really put a lot of effort training squash. But its time tat I realise tat studies shud owiz come first. Its not that I totally stop playing squash, but its tat I wont do intensive training like last time. Playing squash has not got me further than SUKAD, so I think its high time tat I quit…

I will still be jogging, keeping up my fitness for TOT. Hopefully I will do better next year TOT.

I hope I made the right decision…

May 9, 2008

USMKK Latest News!

Filed under: Academics — Tags: , , , , — tanyuethan @ 12:41 pm

The results of Professional 1 and Professional 3 is out! USMKK recorded a 100% passes for Professional 3 although many circulated news that a small number of students failed. Im personally glad for many of my frens who passed their Pro 3 and now heading the way to become House Officer. Wow, how nice! People gonna call u guys Doctor… U guys deserve it!

The bad news is that many failed Pro 1. About 50 medic students and 25 dental students failed their Pro 1 exam. Some of them are repeaters, that means they have to switch their courses. In USMKK, u cant repeat a major exam more than once. If u failed twice, u will have to switch courses. I felt for those who didnt make it this time, some of them are my frens. It gonna b tough for them. But life must go on, after all the shock and disappointment, they shud rise up and go on with life. Find other means to survive in this tough and difficult world.

My prayers goes all out for them. I believe God don’t just simply allow failures in our life, He owiz has a plan that we may not see. Most importantly we must seek Him owiz, ask Him wat are His plans for us. Never give up in our fight in life. Put God 1st and Live for Him! One day, when u look back, all this failures will b  a testimony that glorifies His name. When u failed, come to ur knees to God, seek Him…

Maybe one day, someone will step into our shoes and experience the difficulties we are facing. He/She will learn from ur hardships and take u up as a role model…

May 4, 2008

In trouble now!

Filed under: Academics — Tags: , , — tanyuethan @ 9:17 pm

Today has been a really bad day for me. Yesterday I didnt went for on-call as I was not feeling well. I was having URTI, maybe because of the heavy downpour of rain while I was doing my CFCS work at YOKUK. The doctor on-call yesterday got really angry as there were also another 2 who didn’t came for on-call. Now he wants us to write an explaination letter to him. I just finish writing it, hope he will forgive my offence. I really don’t want anything terrible happen to me as this is my last posting in 4th year. I’m really worried about this, my heart is not at peace now. I pray that God will have favour on me and let the doctor grant me forgiveness.

Tomorrow I’m gonna submit my explaination letter, now my mind is full of anxiety… Will the doctor let me go? Will he punish me? I know there’s nothing much I can do now, as I’m now at his mercy… But really, when I’m in trouble, my mind will headwired. Dilemma….

Pray, pray and pray….

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