Heavy Cross

Oh Lord, I feel so down inside

A deep heavy feeling, So deep is the feeling

I don’t even know how to express it out

Its seems that the world is crushing on me

And no one is around to comfort me, O Lord

I don’t understand Lord, why me

Why is it me, why me,

Have to bear the burden for You

So heavy is the cross, Lord

I can’t bear it alone, I need You

Lord, grant me strength, grant me hope

That I may bear the heavy cross

To walk in Your holy path

Not only for 1 day, 1 month or 1 year

But til the day You call me home

This poem was written on 25/10/2007 – 9.30am, and posted in my friendster blogs, when I was feeling sick and lonely…

Healer of Heart

I’m the only only Christian

In my group of 29 people

It seems so lonely sometimes

With no one to share with

And sometimes I noticed that

Its seems there’s no difference

Between me and the rest of 28

I looked up the sky and wonder

What on the earth I am here for

My life is so lack of God

So lack of His grace and mercy

I have lost my hope in the Only One

I placed my trust on my own strength

In the end I’m so so dry

I became bitter and bitter

Towards christian friends

I think they just don’t care

I’m supposed to be by myself

But I forgotten, I forgotten

No matter how the world fails

God never fails, never fails

No matter how deserted we are

God is faithful and just

His Love is higher than mountains

Deeper than the oceans and seas

He picked me my heart

Which was hurt and bitter

And turn it into a new one

One full of His fragrance and mercy

My new heart shines a new aroma

Full of fruits of the Spirit

Love, joy, peace, righteousness

Patience, kindness, goodness

Faithfulness, gentleness and self-control

Now that Jesus is in me

I’m not ashamed anymore

I will confess His Love

Till the the ends of the world

Till I say goodbye to the world.