Today, life was as usual. Except that I went for prayer meet. What a unexpected decision. CF has its prayer meet, every sat, 6-7pm but most of the time im doing my regular exercise at this time. Today was a bit different, I went for archery at 5pm with Arvind (the coolest macha in USMKK). We finish playing about 6pm. I was in my room at that time when I decided to go prayer meet. Its been a long long long time since I prayed with people. Kinda miss that feeling. Arrived at the prayer meet, saw those commited ones there, Gabriel, Carl, Patrick and Sze Hua. Im amazed by their commitment to prayers but at the same time I felt a bit out there already. Maybe because I long long time didn’t join in CF activities.
During the prayer meet, Gabriel prayed for our CG. I was so grateful to him. Our CG is realy dying and the members are getting less and less interested in CG. Sometimes I just feel like giving up. My actions even seems to show that I had already given up on our CG. No matter what I do, the members will never understand. I began to lose motivation in continuing the CG. Takde semangat edi…
Dunno why, recently I began to lost sense of belonging in church. Owiz feel alone… I already stop attending the MYF in church and soon will stop serving as guitarist in Methodist Church. Will I feel more lost next time? I remember once I talked to Thung Guan over the Msn. He also felt the same at Methodist Church, He owiz feel lonely and it gets worse year after year. Especially when Li Ying in not around, He felt out of place. He shared with me and suggested me to change church. But where should I go? Im very amazed and impressed with the close relationships that some of our frens in Methodist church enjoys. I feel happy for them. But I don’t have a belonging there.
Tomorrow is gonna b a new day. I hope for something meaningful tomorrow.
