Here I am, again. Pouring out my feelings and frustration as a house officer in KKM. More than 6 months has gone, visitors of patients in HPSF call me Dr, staff nurses call me Dr, PPKs call me Dr. But somehow, deep inside, I dont really feel that Im like a doctor. Kinda pathetic hor… Probably I lack of confidence….
Everyday we go thru the same thing, like a roundabout, where u owiz end up in the same position. Facing demanding ppl, doing calls, working up 12-14 hours everyday. Huh…. How I wish I have more time for church, more time to spend with friends and family. But we spend most of the time facing patients, and their file folder… Hahaha!
Today, USMKK is having their Xmas Nite… Organized by CF USMKK. I wonder how is it going now. With those fun of performance, dancing, singing… How I wish to be there, especially to see ‘someone’, but as houseman, job owiz come first… patients above self… And we are only eligible for 8 days leave every 4 months. In other words, we are working 340 days a year!!!! Gou li ah!!!
This sunday, my MO decided to have a discussion session on Dengue Fever, at 8pm. Thats the only time i get to go church every week. And now I have to attend this session. Sad la….
